Torture

I wish I could Jump through this point in time I'd know for sure The time of trial is mine I hate these thoughts I hate your words of wisdom I love this dark I'm sitting in to remind me Here's my little torture I'm bringing on and holding on to Here's my little lesson I'm trying to learn this time These are the days I dread and these are the rules These are the games I play I don't know how I came to enjoy this feeling I'm so far down I'll need some quiet for healing I hate your smile I hate your love and your laughter I love this dark I'll love you more than me after